the reality is so cruel...

i just sent a msg to him..i say..wei...i pass jor all my papers...but u know..he dint even bother to reply me...change...everything change~

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fuhh~~ i pass all my exams...but why i dont really feel happy?? i feel like telling him this..because i still remember is him that always try to remind me to study..but i know he dont even want to know it now..wether i pass or fail..non of his business..why i gt this feeling that he dont want to know about my thing anymore...very hard...life is so hard...hard to except something that dont go my way...this period i feel so unhappy..so emo..ppl can see it obviously..but i really cant pretend to be happy as b4...

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i really cant take over...every morning i woke up..i feel like crying...my head n mind is so heavy..i keep thinking of him...help me..i dont hope i will like that...its a nightmare...

Sunday morning...

yesterday i have send 1 msg to him..i said..sorry to him cos of my tone f voice that day i spoke to him..i say to him u dont nid to care i go where..u dont nid to know..i just know i wanna return ur key by today!!! sounds like i just wanna end up everything..but in my heart i am vr pain...i said to him that i will drop by low yat and gif it to him 2day..i said i regreted...but then no reply from him... today when i log in my fb..i saw his post..for so long time he did nt post anything..he post...'Pressure pressure pressure!!!y u all still make me more down.....haizzzz'
yeapp...i am 1 of the main ppl that pressure him!! i am the one..i trouble u alot...sorry... 2day is the day to end up everything..once i pass him his key.. it is actually his key...not his bro's gf...i know is his key that really meaningful to him..that shows that he still vr deep to his ex... 2day is everything...the end...

Saturday~~

its saturday nite...all my friends is with their bf..when i called my bro..jorgen, he is even in his gf's hse...but still he coming to find me..without u bunny melissa my life more lonely..He is getting more n more far away from my life... and i am here getting back to my usual life b4 u appear in my life..

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i dont want to emo so long...i dont want....

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very pain....

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I know what should i do..obviously i have to do it..i have to slowly walk away...but i just know it is vr hard...i go to fast and to deep..too fast...i am a stupid naive person..whoeva treated me good i feel like he is everything..i am a stupid sohai...many memories..even in a short while 2-3 months..many memories that i never had b4 with the person i truly care for...1st time i experienced it..my heart vr pain..when i recall back all those memory u gave me...i just too stubborn..i cant..i reli cant move on...please bang me on the rock wall....

Super duper hurt~

I am hurt hurt hurt hurt hurt~ Many things u gave me make me feel so pleasure and good for the first time in mylife..but why can the GOD just take it away..i swear i am deeply hurt....