hard feeling..

i dont blame you hurting me..i dont angry..because i believe you were hurt by your ex before too..at least i know this feelings when you go thru....all this matter cant be force..no matter what..i hope he is high confident..know that he is a smart guy..effordable guy..hardworking guy...problem will always solve whenver he settle it...i know maybe he is fucking hate me nw or fan gam why i delete him..and cant be normal friend wif him...but i have to think of myself too..if i be friend..i will more hurt..must understand..we r not ex couple that can become friend..and the things that happen really vr hard to explain...and foreva there's a question mark in my mind..why he wanna involve from starting to care me..to take care me..say those words that make me feel so comfortable..then he wanna tell me he is playboy dont wait for him..my heart is very pain...8 months being drag...and this is what i get...u dont know how much it hurts...i am tired..i am tired of being hurt...i start to dont believe in love anymore..i dont know why i dont deserve to be love...