THings that i tought it exist all this while is just an illusion...

last time, for these year..i tought u were sincere...i tought when u so good to me it was real...i tought magic will happen..i tought you were the one...i tought you are the one..so i decided to give you my everything...when i say i dont trust...you make me trust you so much...and i keep thinking of you no matter what i do...no matter where i go...what i seen...what i eat...i also will think of you...even the gap between me and you getting far n far day by day...i feel you not that good anymore but i keep think a reason for you...i tought this is what should i do and be patient...i tought one day you will want to...i keep wait wait and wait...sometimes the reason make me hold so long because i tought you still care...i tought even you dint find or contact me...your heart at least still gt me a lil bit...but...now i realize it is just my illusion and the truth...

you sometimes care is because you felt guilty when you dint find me cuz i treat u good...
because u want to be loved and liked...you feel proud...
because you are selfish and i dont realize that...
you are a jerk...

why you still will want to go malacca with me...
why you will celebrate your bday with oni me?
why you.............
why???

even it is past tense...but forever there is a scar in my heart...tears will suddenly come at night..