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Until 2day..already 1 month after he said that to me...i still feel he is not like that...i still wonder who is in his heart...he like who?? i dont think he is a playboy..i keep viewing his fb everyday..i hate myself..i damn fucking hate myself..why i cnt put down him...why??? he dont even care about me..why i cant...i feel so suffer..no matter what happen how he hurt me..drag me for so long...in that 9 months..when he find me a bit i feel so happy...when he care me abit i felt so damn fucking happy...i am satisfy if he just care me abit..but why he a little bit also cant..if he dont like me why he wanna give me hope...why he wanna go malacca wit me...why he wanna do all those...i dont understand..i really dont understand...i fucking hate myself now,..i fucking hate it!!! i dont know why GOD make us meet each other...why i meet a stone...human that look like a stone...he seems like what also dont want to care...i dont know why i see so big different in him...last time he is not like that....i dont know why!!!!! he dint even take a little action to find me back even as a normal friend...i dont understand why he can be so cruel....