8/10/10

2day i feel so dizzy..headache...not enough sleep..went to club and slept for only 3 hours again..hmm hmm..but i have already use to this kinda life since one and half month ago...but i think i have already make this as my habit..i can run away from club every week..and i feel that i can forget everything when i am there..even drinking is not so good..but i have already use to it...lolz...and i am still noticing his fb every morning...and he is already starting to play foursquare..this is nt gud for me...because i might be curious where is him what is he doing and i will open his fb n see...wtf am i doing...what the hell...when can this end...when...i really dunno..sometimes when i think of it..i still feel kinda pain...and start to think what is my problem again and again and again....but i still very curious weather 1 day i will get to meet him somewhere onot..and hw would it be?? maybe he hates me alot and he wont even care to look at my face..lolz...i am sure this might happen..

i felt really tired no matter mentally or physically...really tired tired and tired...and yesterday when my friend send me back home he speed until 160km and he ask me issit scared???lolzz..i realize that i dont really afraid of death..i dont know why...i think i die early i also dont mind...because this world is too cruel and scary.....